Jaded youth

I'm only 18 going on 19 but I feel much, much older...
Some say I look older than I really am too. D:
I feel like 30; how's thirty supposed to feel like anyway.

And I don't want to think life has consumed me, that'll be pitiful really.
I honestly feel jaded still.
But it's not an entirely bad thing I guess.

"The man who says he has exhausted life generally means that life has exhausted him."

- O.Wilde